there is another thing i would like to share. Me and J have been together for a while now. We are building our future together. Everything was perfect from the start but now I realized how much it changed. He was my first sexual partner aswell. No many touched me expect him. So I got to know how stuff works what i like what i dont during intimacy. But reaching an orgasm was and still is main problem for me. In the begining he was craving for me for my feelings and to make me cum. but eventhough it was amazing i couldnt reach an orgasm (still cannot). Yes I did a few times but not that much yk. There was also time that i faked it (i told him cus i felt bad i have done it) and now he doesnt even touch me. Only if i tell Him to. Another thing is that i just cannot enjoy when he goes down on me ( he loves it). There are certain things i just love and stuff i hate which i told him but idk it just is not working. I can make me myself yes (but after a loooong time) but i feel like he doesnt enjoy making me? Idk he doesnt like to talk about this because i keep telling him that how much i miss that and so on. Im fr desperate. How do i reach an orgasm? Or what positions would be the best? I feel like, maybe sometimes he doesnt really care that im not done. But that he is. As always. Ugh sometimes I would love to be a guy. Yk and i always do stuff for him but there is nothing for me. How do i come back. I need some Tips what to do cus i can’t anymore.