Self Conscious, can't be looked at or touched

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So me and partner always seem to have months of sex every night and then months of no interest atall, the last few months have been extremely hard for me, he's not seen me naked, standing up, ever in 7 years. It's fine lying down, I can stretch and feel thinner. But I've started to cringe at his touch, like I go inside myself and my guard is up. The last time I made myself just do it with him, it was like I was numb down there, and he's a big boy, I just wanted it to be over.

I've tried to lose weight, I've got 2 under 2 so incredibly stressed and now working part time too, I've got a terrible fupa - and it's so embarrassing like it's so big, and round only in that area you can't even see my vagina atall when standing or lying down, as well as c section over hang it's got me feeling like I should just leave him

You have 2 babies under 3, your body has been through a lot over the past 3 years. Have you spoke to your partner about how your feeling? My youngest is 9 and I still haven't lost the weight but my husband still wants to have sex with me and I'm sure yours does to.
You shouldn't have to make yourself have sex with your partner.
A few things to try, have sex with the lights off,
Get some new underwear which cover up the bits you don't like, (love honey do some
Good ones)
This one is the most important one, speak to your partner and tell him how you feel.

As the previous poster has said. Talk. Talk and talk. And no u shouldn’t be having sex when u don’t want to. What would happen if he knew that u felt like that?

one big thing that I will tell u. I have put on weight. And when I stand in my underwear or take off my clothes. Trust me on this ur husband / partner isn’t looking at ur stomach. His eyes are not even going there.

Also. In terms of having lots of sex and then none we have that as well. In my opinion the more sex u have the more u want it. It’s keeping that part of ur relationship going. I find it hard as I have dips in wanting it to. But I work on that and so does my husband. Making it a priority.

@branchesonthegroud @Bananas1350
Very good advice from both of you 😊
I never stopped loving or fancying my late wife after all that she had been through, even now 4 years after she has died I fondly remember our afternoons where we just laughed and enjoyed each others bodies.
But as both previous posters have said just keep talking & don't be afraid to cry together.