Sorry but this is a long one so that I can get proper advice, feel like I'm loosing my head, so confused to is it me , my issues, am I paranoid, overthinking....
Ok so I came out of a very abusive relationship and spent months in a refuge , I met my current partner online dating site nearly 3 years ago and he seen the after math of my turmoil, dealing with social services and court case that resulted in my ex being jailed for what he did, I had full trust in my current partner even tho I had bad experience with ex....until I seen how he'd look at women walking past, and I'm not talking about just appreciating beauty in people I mean bent over and near breaking his neck when a girl walked past wearing a shirt skirt, I felt humiliated and gutted, then I found out he watched porn when I was asleep, he always has his needs met but rarely mine, he gives up finishing my needs so I don't get that satisfaction that I crave, I don't watch porn it's not my thing, but he's promised loads of times he won't anymore, we broke up last year and 9days later he rang me to give me the heads up he was starting to talk to someone and to c if we were definitely over before pursuing her more, I panicked and got back with him, recently I noticed his boxers with cum stains and blotches of shiny stains on his jumper he fell asleep in when I was putting a wash on this morning, so clearly must be doing it again, I'm at a loose, am I just too sensitive or is my feelings valid