Any suggestions about how to calm down these thoughts? I am thinking about sex constantly. It’s ridiculous - I’m like what I image a horny teenage boy to be like!
The situation isn’t being helped as there is a builder in my home - it’s all being renovated for me to move in. I’ll be living there alone. I am finding I’m getting flustered at times around the builder and saying stupid things - so embarrassing 🙈. He seems like a good guy - kind and considerate. I’d guess he’s around 10 yrs younger than me. Being a man who is doing physical stuff it’s hard not to think about him 😳. I am trying hard to stay composed around him. Don’t want to give off signals to lead him on as I cannot act on anything ( I’m not at all saying the builder would want to act on anything - there is nothing special about me. I’m petite and constantly get told I look a lot younger than I am - told I have a baby face 🤷♀️ - it’s always been that way - but that’s it).
Anyway, the builder text me one evening last week telling me he was at the pub around the corner from me and joked that he was stalking me. Then a few days ago I locked myself out of the house at 11pm and had to break in - couldn’t secure the property at that time of night so tried to sleep there on a chair ( house has no other furniture in it due to the work being done). I got 2 hrs sleep. Exhausted next day but had to wait for builder to arrive so the house wasn’t left unsecured without anyone there. Said hello etc, explained what had happened and said I was going to go and get some sleep.
He called me later that day to let me know he’d finished working for the day and said ‘will I come over to drop the keys off and bring a blanket to tuck you in?’ Then something about plumping pillows for me 😳🙈. I was taken aback, froze, laughed it off and changed the subject. Btw it was only after he’d said this that when I next spoke to him at the house he mentioned very briefly, whilst looking at the floor, that he has a partner.
I’m thinking this must be typical builder banter. - winding me up for a laugh knowing full well I’m a woman of a certain age and what that means I’m like! How do I stop myself thinking about this though with the way my hormones are raging currently!
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