I’m 31, I’ve never been in a relationship or had sex . Very complex feelings around sex and my body (past trauma) . I’ve been referred for psychosexual therapy with an NHS specially trained doctor, offered a face to face appointment in a fortnight - I had a telephone appt three weeks ago after a 9 month wait in which she recommended we meet face to face .
I’m unsure if it’s worth going . My life is very very messy at the moment, long standing issues that are a big part of the reason why I’m not having sex or dating . They’re not likely to resolve any time soon unfortunately.
I’ve got a diagnosis of vaginismus, and some difficulty around achieving orgasm (ie I can get there but it takes forever and just muscle release, no real pleasure or anything) . I’m on highest dose of anti depressants which I suspect is probably also having an effect .
I suspect the doctor is going to just tell me to ‘sort myself’ more often - on the phone she said something about trying to do it more for enjoyment’s sake as opposed to ‘feeling better’ . God knows what that means, probably trying to slow down or something . She said something on the phone about buying a vibrator but living situation (walls are thin!) means I’m less than comfortable with that .
I’m not sure if it’s worth me going to the appt, I think the doctor was thinking along the same lines as said was I sure now was/is the right time to be exploring this, and now thinking about it I’m not actually sure it is .