This is very uncomfortable for me so please be kind.
My partner and I have a very active sex life and although I never enjoyed receiving oral sex before, I was willing to try and have really enjoyed it.
He’s spoken frequently about me sitting on his face (flippantly and seriously) A LOT. I’ve said I just wasn’t comfortable due to my size and feeling really self conscious.
Well, it was his birthday and we had too much champagne and I decided to do it. He was very excited and I did it.
I wasn’t particularly enjoying it but it wasn’t awful (from what I can remember 🙈)
After a while, He stopped me to say try something else and I was quite surprised because he was the one that pushed for it.
We spoke afterwards and he said he felt as though’it wasn’t quite as he thought it would be and had remembered 🤦♀️‘
Bear in mind, we haven’t done it before, I genuinely did and do feel like I don’t measure up to previous and somehow this act that turned him on beyond belief just isn’t hot with me.
We’ve spoken about it a couple of times and after a while I just ask him to stop because the way I hear what he’s saying just makes me feel so self conscious.
He’s trying to reassure me by saying he didn’t feel like he was in control - I wasn’t smothering him or anything 🙈
Am I over reacting or would you feel the same?
I keep picturing him being down there with me feeling all hot and him flailing around really really not enjoying it and it’s killing me inside. I’m mortified