I don’t know what to do
I got really drunk last night at the pub then went to an after party round my friends house, with my best friend. There were two other men there.
My best-friend went upstairs with my other mate and I was left with the two older men. The closed the door and started making advances on me. I said no and to stop at first but eventually I gave in. I didn’t really feel like saying no was an option so I just went with it I guess. I won’t go into details but I ended up having sex with both of them. I know it’s wrong and I’ll get called all the names under the sun. I feel awful and sick about it. I really didn’t expect it to happen or particularly in want it to.
Whilst it was happening I think I was getting hit on the bum really hard, I told him to stop but he kept doing it. I now have a really bruised bum and it hurts.
I don’t know if I am in the wrong or if I can even do anything about it. Please don’t be nasty, I get myself into some dodgy situations but again, I really didn’t want it to happen. I feel like such a slut though. I feel like I was taken advantage of I don’t know. Maybe I brought it on myself for being there in the first place, I only went there for more drinks and to carry on the night. It’s not the first time something like this had happened to me either, I think I need to rethink some choices.
I feel guilty and ashamed. My memory is hazy. Please be kind.