I'm not really looking for answers more a safe place to rant before I lose my mind. This is so embarrassing to have to say out loud and why I can't talk to anyone in RL about it.
I've been in my new relationship for 18 months now I'm 43 and was miserably married for 20 years before this but since leaving him oh my goodness I felt so alive!!!
Anyway I met my Partner online and our 1st night together was awesome. He was affectionate, attentive, considerate and very satisfying but wow that changed straight away our sex life is non existent. I made excuse after excuse he's tired, he's stressed, my kids are around, he's up early for work blah blah blah. I even thought it would get better when we lived together, nope no change. We talked about having a baby nope still minimal sex which for pregnancy ain't gonna work.
I've brought it up so many times I'm sick of talking about it coz nothing is changing. I know he watches porn quite a bit which really annoys me I'm like hello real woman here! I'm fairly sexually open and have suggested we watch porn together or he tells me what he likes but I thinks he's too embarrassed to share. We'll go for weeks without any sexually contact and is so frustrating that he can't see the damage it's doing to my self esteem. Every other aspect of the relationship is great he's affectionate, caring, helpful and supportive.
Im ready to quit this relationship I spent 20 years in a shitty marriage I do not want to live the rest of my life sexless........