First time ever posting in the sex topic but I’ve started to feel like I’m a freak. I know there’s no such thing as ‘normal’ but I’ve spoken about this with my friends and based on what I generally see spoken about regarding sex etc this is quite unusual.
I’m fine with PIV sex but if I think about it too long I get very squeamish and it makes me feel strange. It doesn’t hurt or feel uncomfortable and once I’m into it I enjoy it, but the initial thought makes me feel really odd. My partner and I both quite enjoy anal and tend to do that more...I feel as though this is definitely unusual.
I also have a real thing about fingering. I don’t mind very shallow finger penetration but the idea of putting something deep inside me that’s not a penis (lol) makes me want to pass out - fingers, a dildo, a tampon...I tried tampons in the past and felt so ill I had to lie down haha. I see women talking about G-spot orgasms etc and I have to stop reading - I really don’t think this is normal at all and it’s developing into a full blown phobia.
It sounds ridiculous but it’s even got to the point I worry about having a baby - not for the actual giving birth but because of the internal exams! I’ve had one smear test in my life (I’m 29) and it was over quickly, really not too bad but I’m due another one next year and I already feel sick about it. I know smear tests aren’t meant to be pleasant and a lot of people feel that way so I guess I’m really asking is does anybody feel/has anyone ever felt this way about sexual penetration? Very worried that eventually it’ll affect me so much I can’t have sex at all.