I'm a 49 year old woman, was gay when I was in my 20s, then straight for years, partly through societal pressure to fit in, or because men approached me and it was easy, partly genuinely felt an attraction to men. None of those relationships with men worked out. And now I've just recently started to experience like I'm gay again. I know technically I'm bisexual but have never really felt bisexual.
So when I was dating guys, I used to get off on being sexually submissive. I didn't act it out a lot, just the idea of being tied up or forced used to be exciting.
Now I'm dating women again, it seems I've done a 180. I've never been much turned on by the idea of being dominant before. I didn't really get it, but now it's what I think about every time I masturbate.
I'm not dating anyone, what with the virus. I'm just wondering how it can flip so abruptly. Am I just acting out some patriarchal bullshit, being dominated by men but dominating women.......?