Hey I'm looking for some advice.
My hubby doesn't want to be intimate anymore.
I've had two children with him and the only time he ever wants to be intimate (which is me giving oral) is when we have had some drugs.
Apart from that relationship wise we don't do anything romantic anymore. I do everything for him from pairing his socks washing cooking cleaning, keeping the kids perfectly looked after, bringing cups of tea, lunches and doing whatever he asks of me. There's not really much relationship left we are not intimate (so I feel ugly worthless and u appreciated) and when we are just ourselves I feel like I'm only ever 'useful' is the word I pick. I don't feel adored, I don't feel idolised- I feel like the man I love with all that I am knows I love him so much and I've become nothing but useful.... not even idolised or respected anymore
In a bit down already anyway but lately I just feel so rejected (unless we have drugs then I get to perform oral for hours and he won't even touch my body back in any passionate form at all) which I don't want...
I don't want to 'want' to have drugs to feel appreciated or gain love from my other half. I just want to be wanted back.
I look after everybody in my household to the max and ignore myself and my own needs in the process and nobody bats an eyelid when I'm run down or exhausted.
I just want a hug and to feel loved in a relationship type way.
What am I doing wrong. I make sure I look beautiful all the time for him and that he never has to lift even a finger and I can't figure out why I'm not good enough to be shown what love intimate or passionate feels like anymore.
I feel relationship lost
Any advice on what I can do please let me know
I love my man with all my heart I just wish I was appreciated back and worry what I've done wrong to mean I am am not