Me and my ex have split. There was alot of abuse there still is even now. We're going through court over the child. I've disclosed and proved the abuse but there's one thing I've not told anyone and I'm not sure how to approach it. I find it really difficult to talk about.
Shortly after I have birth I had loads of stitches from tears. He decided to try and finger me. I didn't exactly say no because he suffered from ED and he got hurt if I rejected him but I tried to put him off and he could probably tell it was painful. I ended up swatting him away because I felt like something was wrong. When I stood up the bed and bedding was covered in blood and I hurt really bad. It soaked through to the mattress I was covered. The bleeding lasted a day or two I think the stitches must have become really irritated and gave way. I didn't go to the doctors I was to embarrassed. I didn't talk to anyone because I felt ashamed.
I had to strip all the bedding completely and put a towel on the mattress because it was damp with blood. He told me to get another quilt and he just asked if I was ok casually and then didn't bother. He acted as though nothing had happened and it didn't phase him. I was terrified
I'm working with a domestic abuse worker, Should I just tell her about this because it keeps troubling me? Does this sound like it was okay for him to do? I didn't exactly say no because I was worried but he must have noticed the blood or something while he was doing it?? Please help my head is all over the place