I don't know if this is the right place. I'm a long term poster than has name changed as this is personal and difficult.
I'm not sure where to look for information on how to help myself.
First off let me just say it isn't anything gross or inappropriate or remotely wrong.
My partner and I enjoy sex quite rough. He is happy to have sex how I like it be it normal and vanilla, or rough and kinky.
I have enjoyed both varieties previously. But lately I feel like I have become desensitised to sex that isn't rough and a bit more out there. And I don't want to be like that anymore.
I want to be able to enjoy normal, safe, healthy sex and feel satisfied without pushing boundaries. I also feel like it has become an almost mini addiction. Don't get me wrong, I don't need sex every day. Maybe once a week or once a fortnight. Sometimes longer. And masturbate once or twice a week.
But I wish it doesn't take up as much head space as it has started to, and also it feels like now to feel complete satisfaction, I need to go further each time.
If anyone knows any reading or websites that can help me reset my head around this. Or even any advice would be really appreciated.