Major Maths meltdown here last night, as predicted. Got herself so worked up she couldn’t study. Spent a couple of hours talking her down before she agreed to watch half an hour of something she enjoys to calm her down, before reinforcing some things she is ok ish with, rather than setting herself off again trying to get her head around circle theorems.
She’s up and eating the porridge and fresh fruit we make for her every exam morning, then dh is driving her in for the pre-exam revision session with her Maths teacher.
I feel so bad for her and also guilty, as she inherited her weird Maths issues from me. Same with her siblings, we are all ok with arithmetic etc. I am perfectly numerate and can do ‘sums’ in my head easily, but my brain panics and switches off with the more complex stuff. I got a D three times before I gave up, but passed O Level Accounts and later the Maths component of Business Management. I have considered retaking as an adult, but honestly, just the though of it makes me panic.
Dd1’s Maths tutor felt there may be some sort of strange dyscalculia going on, as they just don’t think and organise their calculations the way others do. Then, last year, dd2’s tutor said the same about her, but despite her school also Maths teacher being confused about why she wasn’t performing as well as she should, we couldn’t get school to back an assessment and couldn’t afford to go private. Ds is great at the Maths he needs for computing, but struggled with his GCSE mainly because, again, his way of working was odd and he could calculate in his head no problem, but couldn’t show his method/working on paper.
All three dcs have had to really fight to scrape a pass in their exams, while their teachers were convinced they were capable of 7’s. Unfortunately for dd, the goal posts have moved and now they want a 5 instead of just a pass for sixth form. The stress of knowing that has put even more pressure on and she says her brain just goes blank as soon as she opens the paper.
I wish I could say I will be glad when it’s over, but she is going to stress about it constantly until results day.