Primary school days are gone, totally, finally, absolutely.

[PatricksViolin]

We were away most of summer so many things were left untouched and today I finally decided to get on with some of them and started sorting out things DS brought back home on his last day of the school in July.

It didn't progress well as I ended up reading his writing, looking at his illustrations and basically all those things sent me into a sentimental world.

DS is only child and chose to go to boarding school, and now he has gone (though he'll come back weekly). I am not sure if I am feeling sentimental about not having him around any more or missing the primary school days when I could get involved in his life - school run, homework, play date, after school activities, bedtime reading, etc. Maybe both. But I just feel incredibly sad. Suddenly. I mean, he still needs me, and I am still involved in his life, of course. He is only 11. But still...

Just mumbling. I am sure I'll be fine tomorrow. Sorry.

Hey Patrick
What you doin over here.
I was thinking about you before and remembering the wreck I was when dd first went.
Be kind to yourself, You know he's in the right place, with his people.
He's very lucky and he intends to enjoy himself.
I know that how ever many times you tell yourself this, all you feel is how much you miss them. It's completely normal, I don't know a parent who wouldn't feel the same

Oh and pm me anytime, you can have my email too and a few others on here too, if it helps.

Romany, thanks... I'd been trying my hardest not to be miserable but today, just a day before he's coming back so I should be merrier, but suddenly today I just couldn't keep trying. I've been so soppy all this week on the music thread that it must be getting pretty boring for some, so I thought I would start a new thread where I can be a total wreck. Yes, I'll openly admit now, I am a total wreck! I knew it would be hard, but up until now I tried not to think about it too much. I was busy preparing for his new school, busy taking him down there, and busy trying to make sure he's doing alright. Then suddenly reality hit me. Oh no, he's gone. I let him go.

But really, it's not just because he's boarding. I think it's something to do with accepting my baby is not going to be a baby forever. We are entering a new chapter which I should cherish and I am sure it'll bring different kind of joy. But just for now, I want to be soppy about him getting older. I had a wonderful 11 years taking care of him, learning with him, laughing and crying and all that. It's been beautiful.

11? Hm? Yes, it is the baby, little boy with pretty eyes and smile 👶 But you must be proud of yourself 👏 Your child well prepared for the real life and you did it. Wipe the tears, cook his favorite dish and remind yourself- All I I have done, I did for him. You are the best mum. 🤗

Lenazayka, thank you so much for your kind words. DS came back today. He clearly had the wonderful first week and looked so grown up just after one week. I still miss 'my little boy' who was always next to me, but I am pleased that he's turning into such a confident happy young man. It's good he's enjoying his new life...