I'm a fake

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I posted a really lovely picture of the kids yesterday playing together... Really I look at it and I'm so sad. The picture reflects a few moments I was happy for but really I'm so so sad and overwhelmed by everything.

Is this the same for anyone else?

I don’t put pix of mine anywhere but you’re right that the stuff everyone shares is a brief snapshot. Who wants to photograph never mind share stuff of a child having a tantrum or the mess they’ve made?

I know I’ve seen photos of friends’ holidays and commented when I’ve seen them that it looked wonderful for them to pull a face and say bits of it were but everyone got sun burnt, the kids would only eat ice cream and no one slept for a week.

You’re probably no faker than anyone else. And it’s important to enjoy the happy moments!

How can things become less difficult and overwhelming?

What’s up?

Why do you think that makes you fake? Sounds more real to me.

It makes it look like I'm really happy with how things are right now.... Yeah, I smiled and laughed whilst they played and I took a photo... But real life at home is hard, Im struggling and finding the realisty hard. My husband comes and goes as he's likes, I found a day pass online to a spa and cried over the guilt of contemplating it.

It was on my family/friends chat group,reality was my youngest screamed and entire hour before getting there, my eldest sulked as he wasn't playing with his friends and me and my husband bickered because the parking system wouldn't take my payment and all of that was piled on me

You sound tired, sad and fed up. Does your husband know how you feel? (Would it help if he did?).

Also - it’s not wrong/bad/terrible to want some time to yourself, and have a rest and be treated, at a spa or anywhere else. Is there any way you could make this happen for yourself?

I found a day pass online to a spa and cried over the guilt of contemplating it.

Why? Would your H look after them if you booked something?