I really hope I'm not the only one to feel like this but I start each school holiday trying to feel positive and gradually start to feel depressed. I have a 6 year old daughter and a challenging and strong willed 3 year old son. I can't walk around my house freely even as my husband works from home upstairs and I can't run the risk of them going up and disturbing him. One of us needs to be with him constantly really still and I find it so claustrophobic. I thought I would enjoy being a parent more than I do and it would be easier by now. As I am a teacher, I do most of the childcare during school holidays. My son has so been difficult with up to 12 tantrums a day during lockdown along with hitting and throwing and it has taken its toll on our marriage. Does anyone else not enjoy parenthood frequently? I really want to but I can't honestly say I do most of the time.