Ever had those days where anything that could go wrong does, and you just feel like the worst parent ever?
Today at 11am our electric smoke alarm wouldn't shut up, and I couldn't reach it to take it off the ceiling. It woke my 10 week old baby up, who then proceeded to inconsolably scream for four solid hours until finally settling at 3pm.
At around 2.30 I got frustrated and yelled out. Not at him, just in general, but I think it frightened him and now I'm beating myself up about it. I stay at home to be a parent but I also do my job here. Not a single thing got done today, and I've had a grand total of two oreos to eat.
I always envisioned myself being a patient, super chill parent and here I am, wondering if I'm like my mother (always stressed and generally unpleasant to be around on a bad day). I am diagnosed with PTSD and smoke alarms are a massive trigger. I feel like I failed my son today and am just disappointed in myself.
I finally shut the alarm up and now I'm left with all the aftermath of it. I hope everyone's day is better than mine.