Were any of you SAHM’s before getting pregnant?
I was but I had a part time job which hours got cut to only 3 hours after COVID and then I haven’t worked since January because of the hyperemesis.
I just feel so down at the moment, like my existence is pointless. My partner brings in all the money, he’s been doing all the cooking and a good 3/4 of looking after our son.. I just feel like while I’ve been pregnant/unwell the world has just adapted to me being absent and now everyone is fine without me.
I feel like I don’t contribute anything at all and I just wish this pregnancy was over so I could get my body and life back and get a job and start to feel like me again. I’m in such a bad place.
18 months ago things were ok, I had my job, my little boy needed me more..
I just feel so down all the time. I lost my sister suddenly last year and still cry almost every day. I went from planning a wedding that got cancelled 6 weeks before thanks to COVID to my relationship nearly being over - he's said himself he thinks it was a blessing in disguise.
I'm even down about my looks I feel like I look so rough and this year has aged me - I used to have lovely long hair that got so thin I cut it all off and regret it, I used to look after myself getting nails and lashes done etc but I can't afford it now and don't go anywhere to justify spending it. I've lost friends. I look at pictures of myself from 2018 with lovely thick long hair and a genuine smile and feel like the rug has been swept from under me. I look in the mirror now and feel miserable. I just can't imagine ever being happy again and as I say feel like I contribute nothing to this family or life. I don't think the pregnancy helps but I can't remember the last time I felt genuinely happy or laughed and really felt it. I barely smile never mind laugh.
Sorry I just needed to rant x
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
A place for stay at home mums and dads to discuss life as a full-time parent.
SAHP
I've had enough..
1 reply
totallyfedup88 · 29/07/2021 19:29
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.