Not sure where to post this (I have just posted it in the parenting section too). I am pleased that covid is a battle we seem to be winning BUT from my own point of view the restrictions have actually given me more freedom in terms of alone time.
For context, I have no extended family - no grandparents, aunts, uncles etc. Friends all have older children as I've had my last child late on (I have 3 dcs, the youngest of which is coming up to 3). DC3 due to start pre-school in September - in light of covid, I saw September as a more realistic start date and it still seems sensible. But with older two children at home, little one has had a playmate (in between home schooling obviously). When children go back to school, the toddler groups will not suddenly open. Husband has been working at home. He has been another set of eyes and ears (obviously between calls etc.) It's meant that if I've wanted to head off for a walk during the day I can. I've also done the supermarket shop on my own during the day as well (parents can relate to dragging a 3 year old around the shop for a big shop). It's just things like this that has allowed me a bit more freedom. I'm trying to start an on-line business but again I can't do much with 3 year old at home. Covid has been a leveller for me if I'm honest.
I am an older mum and a sahm. I love my dc but the heavy load has fallen to me around husband's work commitments. I want to make the most of the next 6 months but part of me can't help wishing the time away (this is sad too because dc3 is my last child). I have had a tough time over the years including pnd x2. I'm also knee deep in the perimenopause and craving more adult company but doing things that I actually enjoy/am interested in instead of sitting in a soft play centre watching my little one tear around (though obviously this can be lovely too, watching your little one having fun). I think having this for 3 x 3 years, I have run out of steam.
Whilst I was out walking the other day (on my own), someone actually commented that they didn't recognise me without my pram! (Admittedly I had my hood up). This really brought it home to me just how much I have become enmeshed in my role as sahm.
Can anyone relate to any of the above?