I went on maternity leave and after that I didn't feel I wanted to go back full time and I was given a career break so I could stay home for longer.
I then realised the commute was too long and they didn't agree to part time hours. I found another job closer to home, 2 days a week.
It was going ok but DC (13 months at the time) was struggling settling in at nursery. Summer came and I was not working (I only work 2 days a week school term) and dropping DC off, then 18 months and DC crying every time.
So I called it all off.
I met my boss as I was given some time to think about it and I though maybe I could go back, so I looked into childminders instead.
I am so stuck.
I adore my DC. I love time with DC. I just love DC so much as I am sure you all do.
I am terrified of DC being sad or not safe without us around. I know I need to build trust with child minder and this will take time.
I think I just want to be a SAHP because I am terrified of DCbeing sad or hurt, I also love our time together.
But I did enjoy the job, and it is 2 days a week term time only.
It would mean maybe a better working future for us if DH was ill and my job does help me with DC because it is working with other children and I learn lots.
Help me. Would you trust and leave DC for 2 days a week term time only to go to a job that it is quite full on but you enjoy? Money-wise it does not make a big difference now, but maybe pension...?
Thank you because I am lost
I feel so lucky I have been a SAHP until now and I love it but sometimes I lose my patience and I am very isolated, with a history of anxiety and depression, DH thinks it would be good for me but supports me no matter what.
Thanks 