I left greenwich London and moved to Epsom to be near my son and his family after I retired. I am so down, I lost all my friends, connections, the London buzz and everything within easy reach. I have lost my motivation totally. I thought it was just me but it is affecting my partner too and he has never felt down or unmotivated.
my children are all in their 30s now and 2 of them still at home with me, both working full time.
I want to go back to where I lived all my life, the place I call home and feel comfortable, knowing where everything was, familiarity.
what is making it difficult to move back is my family in greenwich are toxic and because of the way they behaved and spoke to my children and behaved when they were living there was disgusting. I have learnt how to keep a distance from them and my children at least two years before I moved to Epsom so if I did go back I will know what to do.
am I been fair to my children if I go back?
do I listen to my wants and needs?
Will I be making the wrong decision if I go back?
isn’t life about having an ignition that makes you want to get up each morning with a smile. I haven’t felt peace since I left, and my partner yearns to go back too. We keep saying for the sake of the children we won’t go back, but we are miserable here and miss our life in London.
I have made friends here and decided to go back to work to feel a bit more settled but I come home and think of going back. My partner has Asperger’s and he finds it difficult to socialise, so he loved going to all the shops each day, getting up early and with a big smile and would go out and about, now he wakes up late and fidgets around the house looking for something to do. I can see he is not happy as he used to be and potters around the house looking lost. He does go out but I can see he is not happy like he used to be.
Sorry, I just want wanted to get this out and didn't bother with the grammar.
thank you for reading 🥰