No idea where to start with this.
3 years ago I was raped by a close family friend. I originally never told anyone, however managed to tell my partner after a few months. We ended up splitting up due to multiple reasons but mostly he blamed me as I was drunk and couldn’t believe it wasn’t reciprocated. Anyway during this time, I slept with the rapists brother and my partner and I got back together. I’m a total mess, drinking and taking drugs regularly due to guilt and self loathing.
how on Earth do I move forward from this. My partner and I are now back together but we are basically flat mates, no sexual interaction at all unless we are both extremely drunk. I want to make this work but have no idea where to start