Hi everyone,
I am currently living abroad with my Husband and DS.
I have no friends/family (that care enough to stay in contact) here or in the UK, a bit sad, I know (I promise I'm not a psycho, people just don't want to stay friends with me for whatever reason). My husband and I have been together for 3.5 years, married for 9 months). A lot of that time was spent in a long distance relationship. During one visit I got pregnant unexpectedly and moved to his home country because he was still a student. So I stayed and stayed...
(We did move back to the UK for 6 months but neither of us could find work)
Our relationship has had severe ups and downs over time but now we barely see each other and we still argue intensly. We just had an argument over something so trivial it isn't woth mentioning and of course his reaction was swearing then storming out to buy beer (not a shit load but my problem is that he is dependant on alcohol calming him down).
I don't feel the way I used to about him and it feels like we are flatmates rather than a married couple sometimes.
I came from a very unstable background and really don't want the same for my DS.
I don't think I can afford to split, I can't stay here on my own, I have nowhere to stay in the UK or have any money to get by, the little work experience I have would not get my very far. I don't know if I want to split but sometimes I just feel trapped and I think that plays a big part in how I feel.
I'm sure what the purpose of this is..I just needed to get the thoughts I can't say out loud off my chest.
Thanks for reading any how.