I split up (amicably) with my DC's father (after 10 years) when they were small. Dunno what happened there really - it just sort of died somehow and he's moved on and happily married with a new family, and I wish him well. Relationship is cordial and we speak frequently about DC.
I then spent 5 years single and celibate (didn't even think about a bloke tbh) then through an introduction from a friend - got into a relationship with a right wanker for a couple of years. Won't go into the details but he was a bully, very controlling and difficult to shake off - it took drastic measures in the end to finally get shot of him.
Then out of the blue a boyfriend from the past turned up but that turned out to be yet another disaster! Had a couple of dalliances after that that went nowhere. For the past three years I have been single and 100% celibate and I'm quite happy. Not even so much as a whiff of a relationship, and it rarely crosses my mind, but I do think occasionally - is this it? It doesn't make me feel uncomfortable in any way, but then I still have both my children at home (14 and 16) and am very busy, I'm self-employed and work long hours - plus keeping the home going, doing all the DIY and gardening and all the rest of it.
I do occasionally wonder what it may be like further down the line, when DC are grown up and left home and I'm the old biddy living on her tod, and will it be too late and all that?
But right now I'm not bothered. Anyone else in the same boat?