Scared about what is about to happen

[CuppaT]

I have posted here before and had some great advice.

It has taken a while but I am now starting to do something about leaving my P.

My boss put me in contact with a property developer / investor who has offered to buy a property that I can rent back from him, I can even choose the house! Went to see one last night and it was nice, going to see another tomorrow.

All this is great and I guess I'm very lucky that this has been offered to me.

I am, however, very nervous about telling P that I'm moving out and want us to go separate ways. I've ask him to leave and he won't so therefore it must be me make the move.

It's been a long time coming, things have not changed and they never will.

I just don't have a damn backbone and it scares the crap out of me.

I've got so much crap to sort out in the house too, it's so daunting.

Has anyone else ever had these feelings but come out stronger? My stomach is in constant knots.

Don't have much to offer in the way of advice, but didn't want to leave your post unanswered, I am sure someone will be along soon with something useful to say.

What I will say though is that leaving can't have been an easy decision, and that in order for you to be putting things in motion you DO have a backbone. .

Good luck

It will be scary, yes. I remember that horrible feeling of constant tension - just keep focusing on the outcome. Have you got any friends/family who are supporting you? Try to focus on the practical side of things and just take it one day at a time. Can you make a list of everything that needs sorting? Are you having to leave behind your P's back? IME that is much more nerve wracking. But if you are in that much of a bad situation you will feel even better when you get out of it.

I promise you it is all worth it and you will feel a million times better in the end when you are FREE.

Yes I have lots of support which is fantastic, my family are great.

I just know what he's like and I know the journey of emotions he is going to go through and try and engulf me in, the same emotions that I have caved into many times before.

I really have to do this, my life is just whizzing away. I have nothing to show but my kids since being an adult!

At the moment, I can't see myself being free and happy etc, it's just clouded by all the muck I need to crawl through beforehand.......