Ok, no more messing around. This is the REAL me and I need help.

[TheRealPerson]

Some of you call me the boxroom troll but there is a person behind that "character" and a TRUE story. I want to apologise for all the messing around, the name changing, the endless threads about the same thing. But none of it was made up. Yes I acted trollishly but I swear to god the story is real. It is my life and I am trying desperatly to change it but it feels like I get nowhere.

Can I post my story from the beginning? the true, no messing around story and ask for your help? I apreciate most of you won't trust a word I say now but I really, really do need help.

I'll post it as a new thread, under this name (TheRealPerson) and if you don't want to read it, don't but please don't post abuse on it. I know I don't deserve help/sympathy but I'm running out of options and I honestly feel like my mental health is showing serious signs of cracking.

ok.....no probs. post it!!

I have no idea about boxroom troll threads etc so you won't be judged on past threads by me.

Post away.

sounds like a good idea to me

good luck

Go for it.

Could you put something on your new thread OP that says "Yes, I have been the boxroom troll but this is for real"? - you've done it here, which is a good start, but if you also acknowledge it in the OP of the "actual" thread, then I think it will help.

There's always been something "recognisable" about your posting style, so people are likely to recognise you - if you admit it up front then it will save a lot of grief further down the thread.

I think a lot of people, even while being annoyed at your threads, have suspected that there was a real hurt and confused person under them and will be prepared to give you the benefit of the doubt.

Well done on reaching a point where you are ready to ask for advice in a more open way.

ive read your threads, i didnt think you were a troll, im happy to read through again but fear advice will still be that for your sake, and the sake of your son you should leave and start again.....

I have no idea what you are on about
Post anything you like on MN, but it's a big site and there can be no guarantee of the reponses you'll get.
You just have to pick the jewels out of the shit

I was on the last thread, with the other name I think. A few Fridays back?

Go ahead, we're listening.

maybe just post it all here?

and yes,was going o say what muminscotland said.....its obvious you were/are struggling and we cpould see a real problem there underneath it all.

i also suspect advice will all be along same lines as previous though

I think most of us have always known that you are a real person with real genuine problems just trying to get at some truth.

I have every sympathy for you so far, and I'm listening if you want to talk.

Thank You. I have posted the thread "The real story". Thanks so much for your understanding. I know some of you will be too pissed off to have anything to do with it now and I totally understand, I would be too.

I need councelling but I'm scared to ask. I know I need to work on my own issues because if/when I eventually leave DP, will the whole thing just repeat itself? it always has so far and I think that is due to MY mind, rather than that of other people's.

The college have a councelling service but I just darnt go. I wouldn't know what to say. "Hi, my partner is a nutcase, his daughter is showing signs of going the same way and his ex wife is long gone when it comes to sanity - but I'm the one seeking councelling" ? I know its not funny but its all so crazy.