Just that really! Why can't I walk away? We split almost 2 years ago but slowly, drifted closer again. I don't think it was even slowly, I just can't seem to break the bond with him.
As we have 3 dcs, it is hard for me to get "out there" and find someone else but I don't think I want to. I long for us to just be a happy family together.
He has is own ishoos which he has never tried to address. He suffers from depression on/off but is always in denial. We split due to a coke addiction which he claims to have stopped now.He is grumpy and intolerant of people so why the hell do I want him around???
We have gone back to sleeping with each other again which just makes it even more complicated. How do I stop myself from being a door mat to this selfish man when part of me still loves all the good qualities about him?