Have been with dh many years.Have had ups and downs which have affected us and the sad feeling seems bigger than the happy bits- i guess the bad bits have been for longer than the good so that s how i associate our relationships feeling wise.When thing go well we seem to retun to old hurts ,unsecurities etc and no matter how we try we end up back at square one.We have just had exellent concelling with a good therapist.Troble is if I leave him the children will suffer - we will leave our home and id feel so so guilty .hes basically a lovely man just dont love him.feel should keep trying !!