but I don't know why!
DH is a director at an Estate Agency (I know, I know), so he's a great salesperson and I know he lies very easily. Untruths just trip off his tongue (I've seen him do it to other people, when I know the truth, IYSWIM) to a point where I think he almost believes whatever he is saying. It's why he's so good at his job.
There have been a few, very minor, occasions where he's told me some very white lies, but since having DD 3 months ago, I'm feeling very insecure about myself and in our relationship, and I'm not really sure what to do. He always jokes around about being a 'major player' and it's really starting to get to me, although he also says I am the love of his life and all those days are behind him.
He is a wonderful father and husband, and I know I'm probably being a bit crazy, but I have just had a baby, have no current plans to go back to work (took redundancy when going onto maternity leave, and don't necessarily need to work, though it feels very odd not to) so I have lost a massive part of my sense of self and I think my self esteem has really suffered. I feel very odd being at home with DD all day, and hardly going out at night, I was a bit of a go-getter and, though I have lots of lovely friends and family, lots of baby groups etc, I often feel very lonely and out of place. I've started to wish I could be the 'old me' again.
I've started to check his phone and emails. Never find anything untoward, but I'm driving myself crazy with paranoia. I haven't mentioned this much to him at all, because I don't want him to think I've gone mental and because I don't want him to feel pressured.
I don't mean to paint a bad picture of him, if I am, he really is very loving and kind, and mostly dotes on me, although things have been a little difficult since having DD, he also says he's never been happier.
What is wrong with me?