why do I behave like this?

[imaloon]

I have changed my name cos i feel like a fool.

Basically i have been with my dp over 15 yrs and we have 3 kids. I would say generally we have a great relationship. However, i always seem determined to destroy it.

I am always on my guard in case he maybe be cheating/fancy other women or generally making a fool of me.He has never ever done anything for me to suspect him.

I think i must be desperately insecure. I dont know why. I have never been treated badly by a man. I am slim and attractive and have a good job.

I find myself picking arguments if i am having a 'bad day' so to speak. I think i see women who get made an awful fuss of by their husbands and feel jealous its not me. While he is affectionate and attentive most of the time i feel its never enough.

Does anyone feel like me. I always feel i need to be on my guard 'just in case' and naturally it pisses him off. It doesnt help that i seem to constantly read stories of men cheating/seeing prostitutes etc . How can i overcome my lack of confidence and insecurity?

Me too flamesparrow. I feel relief and distress that I am not alone in my madness. Please tell me what the affair checklist is?!

i agree that MN probably doesnt help much, plus all of what you hear in the media about celebs. Well if Ashley cole can cheat on someone like Cheryl what chance does it give us?

I also read a thread on here a while ago about a woman who suspected her husband of seeing prostitutes. I stupidly searched the site he had been viewing and that set me off. Jesus Christ the blokes on there were all justifying why they paid foe sex when they were married.'Normal' blokes of my dp's age. Talk about paranoid since then. Now Im convinced that everytime he shags me he wishes i was 25.

I can't remember the specific one, but if you google "signs your partner is having an affair" you get one, it is all things like changing/taking an interest in appearance, going out more, keeping phone with them, using msn/facebook more, more interest in sex/less interest in sex (you may NEVER vary your sex enthusiasm it seems).

Prostitutes has never been a fear, I will say that. For me it has always been about him loving someone else rather than sex iyswim.

It was Mark Owen that did it for me. I thought he was one of the good guys

How are you getting on?