just need to write about someone.

[Fliight]

...just feel very in love, it might pass in a day or two, but I just need to write about him.

I went to see him today and felt so warm, near him...as though I could sit down there in the sun, beside him, and never ever come home again.

I feel like I could go anywhere with him. It was so hard not to reach out, and hold on to him, touch his woollen sweater, feel his strength and calm through my skin

I know in his eyes there is something, but it might not be love...we are friends, he likes me, I like him, it's more than the usual thing but he's holding out for the woman who reminds him of his mother, and I understand that...he waited for me, once, and now I'm waiting for him. One day perhaps we'll both be available at the same time!

I just so wanted to take him into the house, and lie down with him.

Can you sustain a friendship where this is so frequently the case? He looks at me with some kind of meaning, and he is there for me sometimes - though I know he isn't ready yet, I think one day he will be mine.

It's a nice feeling though.

Oh goodness.

"he's holding out for a woman who reminds him of his mother" ?

No disrespect but he isnt called Norman by any chance is he?

Not taking the mick --- it is nice that someone has a little bit of happiness on this site - we are all insensley jealous please dont tell us he looks like a movie star and is hung like a horse

lust, is probably all it is.!

Norman

lol

no, not Norman.

He's dating a 65yo woman who is very pretty

He has his reasons!

if your both unattached then what on earth are you waiting for?

Well, she lives miles away but he is quite devoted, in an oedipal kind of way, I think. He would never hurt her. But he gets cross with her. Ithink he needs it to be this way.

He always says he doesn't know what the future might hold, and last summer he kissed me but it was terrible when I realised he was still with her.

I had a right go at him, and he apologised.

I didn't speak to him for ages but he;s trying to make it up to me now.

He was mad about me years ago when I was dating someone older, too. So we're about quits now.

Just wanted to jump him though, today.
Kids were there...and I won't, if he's still with her. Not getting into all that nonsense!

I have sent him a message saying something along the lines of how much I need him. I hope he won't mind.

do you think you need to spell it out in words of not more than one syllable?

if he wanted you once then chances are that he is still in touch with you for a reason, maybe he is waiting for you to give the go ahead?

Oh I've been through the desperate stage a year or two ago...he knew, alright...I'm certain he still knows, and he told me the other week how he feels about me.

But he is attached to this woman, and it's part of who he is, and that's Ok - I don't really see her as a direct threat, because it's so different to what we are, she's 20 years older than he is, and he likes being alone, too - which is similar to me.

So, really, it's a kind of cat and mouse type thing, but I don't think he's waiting for me to say - he might be quite happy shagging us both, but she is a bit scary and I'd feel really bad doing that, obviously, so won't go there. I also deserve a little more than a timeshare

so, we'll see I suppose.
It's just so nice to find someone you can be yourself with, isn't it? I mean really yourself, relaxed, happy, safe.
He's bonkers and he lives in his shed, always covered in oil. Makes me very happy

thanks for listening btw.

okay not Norman (thank goodness)

how about Wayne (as in Rooney) I hear he likes older women

am happy to listen.

your right - you definitely deserve more than a time share.

and so does his partner.

i think if youve told him how you feel and he isnt going to act on it you should find happiness elsewhere. is that possible?

I could never yell his name during relations if it were Wayne

it just wouldn't work would it?

if he was hung like a horse would it matter

Colleen doesnt seem to mind

You're right Vicar. And I'm still cross with him for even thinking about it. But he knows that.
I'm keeping an open mind, really - I don't have anyone, and not sure if I'm ready for a full time relationship, and I'm just fantasising really.
I love the feeling of being close to him though. It's as though no matter what, I'll always have that - it all feels OK tonight.

If someone else turns up, well, so be it. But I feel happy at the moment.

Sorry, I didn't mean to sound so callous about his girlfriend. I'd never want to help him cheat on her. But I think acknowledging the feelings are there is allowed between good friends.
Must have known him about 8 years now. He used to invite me on a 'date' to help him put up guttering.
we are well suited.

'He's bonkers and he lives in his shed, always covered in oil. Makes me very happy'

That has got to be the best thing I've ever read!! I'm sat here with a big smile on my face!!!

aww flight. im glad your ok with it but he needs a kick up the arse. not fair to toy with you. i suppose its either going to go somewhere or it isnt and i wish you the best of luck...maybe your going to have to push him one way or the other at some point.

Sorry I know it prob is frustrating reading about someone getting all soppy over what is essentially a typical, doomed to be non committal, hairy bloke in a shed,

but I have generally very long stages of NOT feeling all moony about him, and then it'll kick off again briefly and then I get sensible and start fancying someone else.

It's just one of those things I feel the need to celebrate, because I've become so fond of the old git.

Thankyou for your tolerance!

It really doesn't matter what you do as long as you are happy. I was on and off so much with one boyfriend that half the time I forgot whether I was with him or not. Went on for years.

x

This is totally mad, Fliight, but very very sweet

Thank you for making me go all gooey this sunny evening!

Just going to say,

I know exactly what you mean, even down to the waiting part.