My husband is depressed and home life pretty rubbish at the mo. Husband's job not secure due to capability issues (acknowledged to be partly around depression and mental health issues). I am earning a lot more than DH and didn't want to go back to work FT but didn't trust DH to hang onto his job and needed to know mortgage would be paid. I feel so incredibly disappointed in where we are. So not how I'd imagined things panning out. I was upfront about being up for a bunch of kids and holding off the career for a few years. Open to sharing childcare etc - didn't want someone to totally look after me IYKWIM? But basically DH is super hero as got flexible public sector role and is there for DD more than me.. I work more hours and have more extra curricular stress. It's not how I want things to work.
Anyway, I'm in a male environment at work and not amazingly attractive but seem to have lots of male attention. I wonder if I'm subconsciously giving off an 'available' vibe. Anyway, recently, I've been propositioned by a guy through work - bit of a 'moment' was tempted didn't do anything and posted on here because it upset me and made me think about my marriage and the fact that I wanted to do something. Have developed a close friendship with male colleague who has a few days ago broken it off with his long term partner. He has called me three times today to talk. I feel guilty. There is nothing in it but at the same time I've not told my DH. I feel all over the place. I don't know how to fix my marriage and have talked more to this colleague recently than my husband. I feel like I want to run away and if there was a place I could go with my DD and sort the childcare and everything and the bills I would. I don't know what I'm doing and feel too young for this sort of marriage crisis.