After a couple of years of a terrible relationship dp and I seem to have mastered it!
We have had so many problems, emotional, physical and financial (still do!!). We have fought, argued, threw things, hit each other, almost ended the relationship numerous times.... and worse!
But a few months ago we started talking properly.
We have even rekindled our sex life! Ok.... it's not "9 and a half weeks" but it's great to be that close to each other again. I've stopped getting really upset about trivial things and dp has really made an effort in the areas I thought we had problems. What a difference. And as most of you know it has even meant we have set a date in October to get married.
For a long time I just never thought that we were right..... something was missing. I realise now that perhaps I was just looking too hard for that little spark to reappear and for me to suddenly have a Mills and Boon relationship with him!
Last night we sat out in the garden when ds had went to sleep and we talked. We talked about all the problems we had had, most stemming from my PND. We talked about our mistakes in dealing with problems, mine and his. And for the first time I didnt blame him for all the problems.
I feel very happy and content and I can 'feel' how much he loves me even though he tells me he does.
I can't wait to be his wife.... and I NEVER thought I'd feel like that about him.
S'pose what I'm saying in a really soppy, clumsy way is that just coz there are terrible times and just coz the earth doesn't move when dp walks into a room..... that doesn't need to be the end of your relationship/marriage. Sometimes you can come out the otherside even stronger than before.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE Don't think this is a self praise bragging post.... coz it isn't!