able to save their marriage. Dh and i have been together for 10 years i have 2 young ds and a sd.Dh works away alot and ive given up a good career to be a sahm. Ive had enough of him being lately and putting my life on hold because of the current situation he's unable to find another job which i know isn't his fault.
The thing is since ds2 whos 2 we've drifted apart. We hardly speak on the phone and when he's home im more relieved about him taking the kids off my hands then having him home as my husband.But then when he trys to discipline the kids i get annoyed as we have different parenting styles.He's alot stricter then me even over trivia things and so the kids don't like it as they aren't used ot it.
I find myself being irritated by him even his breathing. I don't fancy him and we haven't had sex in months. My head tells me i would be crazy to leave someone who loves me the way he does and to break up the family home but my heart isn't in it. I feel like a veil has been lifted and im begining to wonder what i saw in him and im so desperately trying to look for it.I feel like ive been in a bubble for all these year's.
He is a good man and he works hard to put a roof over mine and the kids heads and i feel so ungrateful. But im finding very hard to pretend and find the feelings ive had for him. Do you think this is it or can i pull it all back?