Feeling a bit low. Went to playgroup this morning and didn't talk to anyone, except to say hello to one lady I knew. I couldn't think of anything to say to her as I don't know her well, so convo kind of petered out. My DD is 17mo so I just let her crawl about and play and I sit on my own and hope that someone will strike up a chat.
I would just really like to meet some friendly mums. I live in an area full of glamorous mums, all whizzing about looking svelte and busy and generally with 2 kids - and I am black with a pale mixed race kid and I wonder if they think I am her nanny... When I feel like this it doesn't make me want to try harder, it just makes me want to stay at home and hide.
Most friends have gone back to work, I used to make cakes for parties etc. but I am rubbish at cake decorating and totally impatient with it so not sure I will appeal mums wanting elaborate princess cakes. So have been nervous about starting it again. No confidence and also prefer spending time with dd rather than ignoring her while I bake and plan etc.
Shall I just continue to hibernate until DD goes to school and hope to meet pleasant mums there?
I was never any good at making friends before, I don't know why I thought it would be easier with a kid.