I'm feeling a bit jumbly, so I'm really sorry if this makes no sense.
I have been married to H for just over 3 years. We split in march last year ( at the grand old age of 2 years married!) because of many reasons; he was awful to me after DS was born, asked the midwife if she could just take me off the drip and give me some tablets to take home ( I'd had a 3rd degree tear) as he had " family coming up"
Refused to help me in any way- for some bizarre reason used to come home for his lunch and lock himself in the dining room, as he needed peace to eat I won't pretend to be perfect, I had pnd and was possibly hard to live with.
Anyway, eventually we split up ( my choice) I rented a house back in our home town ( he was in the forces) and things were just ambling along.
He then leaves the forces, and asks us to give it a second try. Wasn't sure so I suggested we just take it slowly.
Since then though we have had a few minor arguements, but on friday he suddenly turned on me, telling me I'm not fit to look after Ds as I am clearly insane, because I cry all the time ( I don't, have been a little bit tearful because DS wakes at 4.20 every morning and I'm a bit tired, but not excessivly crying)
I repeatedly asked him to leave ( we still live seperately) which he refused to do, carrying on with all the 'proof' he has of my mental instability.
This all ended with him standing outside my house shouting that he would not leave as DS was not "safe" with me.
Since then he has been round saying it was just a "silly arguement" and to forget it. I don't want to forget it, I'm furious with him, and don't want to have any relationship with him other than as my childrens' dad.
But I am feeling terrible, and don't know if I'm jumping the gun, and being over sensitive? I don't really have anyone to discuss this with. Hate talking to my mum about it, beacuse then it's there forever, if that makes sense? So all advice would be gratefully received!
I'm sorry it's so long.