finally admitted it's over

[lionstigersandbearsohmy]

Things have just all come to a head with DP, he turned quite nasty and blamed me for a lot, I am not a normal person apparently. He admits we are just lodgers sharing the same house (my fault of course!) and although he doesn't want me to go he will be relieved that he can do what he wants!

Although I was dreading this next step feel relieved and his reaction confirms all my reasons for wanting to leave.e.g He grabbed and shoved me in the middle of a supermaket on Christmas eve which he calls a fiasco and 'oh god, you don't forget anything do you???'

My dilemma is what to do now, I've been looking for places to rent but there really isn't much about at the mo. So do I stay and somehow try and stick it out until something comes up or do I go and stay with my Mum which would disrupt DS (2:10)with several moves and upheaval?

poor you, go to your mums will just be unhealthy environment for your DS. Your DH sounds like an arsehole better off without him. Interestingly you don't sound sad just relieved and pragmatic good for you and good luck

i mean if you stay its unhealthy, not unhealthy at your mums!

How do you feel? Just relief? Maybe don't rush the next move unless its dangerous for you or ds obviously.

Any chance you can stay and he move out?

There will be lots to think about and ds needs to be both of yours' first priority. Its surprising how things affect them before anything actually happens.

I do feel sad that it's come to this but I'm doing the right thing.
No way he'll move out, he has made that clear, I'm selfish and he won't give in to me. Don't think it will become dangerous just awkward...