kick me up the arse and tell me i am silly, but i can't say this in RL..

[yousaidit]

... I have got 2 gorgeous dc's, lovely sometimes exasperating dh (standard model, i believe), roof over our head, car (second hand) no finance on it a`nd it starts in the snow.. usual v normal life that i am very grateful for...

but three of my best friend are either pg or just had babies and i am sooooo jealous /broody / gutted that my baby days seem far oft and gone..

am i a silly whingey knob? i actually feel jealous, yet i've already got what they will be having! what is wrong with me?

at me being a dozy mare

Will it be their first?

I am always jealous of people having their first. It is such a special, life changing time and those weeks afterwards when you can just spend the whole time totally immersed with your new baby, it is never the same when having second or more babies.

No, I felt like that when my Dsis had her first baby last month. Also have two gorgeous DC and even a fantastic and not exasperating-in-the slightest DH, plus have just re-kick-started my career in a big way.
I think it is just natural to feel like that really.

thankyou hruthisinthewine and dollius.

yes, they are all their first dc's, so there is definately all the life changing , lovely, doting husbands, rusjing to hospital at 3 in the morning in labour things happening! gah!!

I've just given one of my friends my dd2's pushchair from when she was a new born and I just thought better that she got the use from it than it stay cluttering up our attic. I have 2 dd's aged 10 and 4 and I really have no desire for anymore however I have also been going through all the clothes from when they were both little, giving a lot of dd1's clothes to dd2 and I'm going to sell dd2's stuff as I am not having any more dc, I have felt a pang of sadness that the time when dd2 could fit into them has passed but have to say I am also relieved as the times when dd2 could fit into those clothes were also the times I hardly slept and had to work very hard and we were still broke. Now I'm building our future for instance I've just booked us a break to disneyland, it's the start of a new era, a time when I no longer need everything to be so strictly in routine, a time when we can relax and the thought of 7 hours on a train won't make me think how can I keep a 1/ 2/ 3 yr old entertained etc

Having said all this I am a childminder so I do still look after little ones so I'm still having cuddles with tiny cute children as well as having fun with my older children so it's the best of both worlds and I also get to sleep everynight and not be skint because I've spent 6 months on mat leave.

yeah, LoveMyGirls, the leaving the baby phase is a nice thing, not having to lug car seats, changing babgs, warmed bottles and stuff round, the knackering baby part over with, ....
it's just all the.. niceness , all the doting sobbing husbands ( i might be strectching that a bit!) that fab new first baby thing... oh gawd, i do need to snap out of it, don't i?