As some of you know I have split with my partner but we still live under the same roof with our DS aged 14 months. I am currently pushing the council for housing. We are both in serious debt and he was hoping his stepdad would step in and help him out (I would sort mine out and he would be in a better position to help me out with DS), SD has since had a change of heart and tonight I really felt for Ex - because I am a schmuck and I worry about him.
This evening we were talking about a work colleague of his and it dawned on me that he has feelings for her . . . I am hardly suprised because it had occured to me before but why I am still upset? it will never work for us again and I live for the day when I will out of here so why I am teary?
It hasn't helped that he buggered off to Glastonbury last week and next week he is off to Alton Towers with the work colleague and then to a gig where he will stay overnight - I feel like I am gearing up for the single parent lifestyle already (and I like it - so why am I still upset?)
The tosser won't talk to me about it and I did push on the work colleague thing - probably because my spider sense was tingling . . .
None of this is makes sense I guess unless I have bent your ear about it before but I am just feel so knacked and "abused" because I still put too much energy into this dead relationship and I am my own worst enemy.
Just ignore me, it was nice to ramble type!