... instead of last night? two dcs, hoofed them off to grandparents for a rare (at dp's hinted wishes) night out. it was great, didn't have to remembver to close safety child gates, ate tea in front of telly without being harrased to share tea or make sure small people were being fed, get washed and dressed for a night out at a leisurely pace, no bedimes to sort out... you know that luxury i'm talking about, don't you?
so, ff we go to meet a big bunch of friends for a fab pub crawl, me and dp both tired but enjoying it, then really knackered and head home, not dp has been dropping massive comments all evening about how we're going tp do 'loads of shagging' because, typical f lots of parents with small dc's, its not happening that ooften. i'm tired before we go out but wrecked when we get back. before we even get to the house dh announces really loudly 'well i'll just have to accept we're never going to have sex again, are we? i mean i've go used to it so there'. Riiigggght, ok, i ignore this as dp now being cranky and v drunk, then i go in and go to bed, turn lights off, dh marches upstairs wanting to know why i've left al the lights on, (think that was being clver?) then crashes into bed and falls asleep.
so, no sex for dp, in morning he can't remember any of this and looks mortified. Me? fed up. i am bone tired, i have to assign dp child care duties for a couple of hours on a weekend so i can catch up with cleaning etc and this obviously means dp is contender fot martyrdom. Why do i now feel so much pressure to have sex? we do, just not as often, and dh is always dropping stupid comments that now make me feel self conscious and i would never have seen myself as feeling like this. bleurg, just feel a bit better for typing down things. just v fed up that a good night out got ruined, as usual.