My daughter goes to a small primary school where there are various cliches of mums
When we first went, 5 years ago now, there was one particular cliche with a boss ring-leader. She later said she hated me on the spot, but later decided I was OK and we became friends and had a good relationship for awhile though we didn't have much in common. She's quite a gossip and always knows everybodies business. Others in the cliche were my friends also and we've all been around each others houses and had many happy times over the school holidays.
For some reason, and I haven't a clue why, ring-leader has been cold-shouldering me for the last few years for no apparent reason. She was always quite bullying of me and trying to tell me what to do and then got annoyed if I didn't take her advice over things. That is the only thing I can think of.
If I join the group in the playground and try to make conversation with her, she'll slowly turn around so I'm looking straight at her back less than a foot away. After this kept happening I started to talk to other people and kept my distance and then eventually stopped even taking part in the group. It was really hurtful and I got fed up of being cold-shouldered (literally).
Well, after the Summer holiday, when I didn't hear from any of them, they've all been cool towards me and I don't know why. Some, still haven't spoken to me since we got back in September. Recently, I said hello to a few and they seemed OK but cool.
The ring-leader I am not too bothered about now but its the others that are hurting me the most now. They've all been around my house and many of them I have tried to help in various ways and given them things etc. I've really put myself out for one in particular who was going through a bad time and needed a friend. I am famous for not gossiping and can keep a secret, so I know it's not anyting I have said.
Now the new batch of mothers have joined the school, one seem to be giving me snooty looks too.She has palled up with the one who I helped the most and who had the same sense of humour as me. I see them laughing and joking and I feel really lonely. I'm standing in the playground on my own quite often and now don't try to talk to them.
It has really got me down, and made me depressed and felt close to tears on many occasions. It's hurt my daughter too.
I'm probably been stand-offish with them too but it's been fear of rejection. They may think it's me that's changed but I'm sure the ring-leader has something to do with it.
I know there isn't any answers anybody can give but I just wanted to put my thoughts down at last and say how unhappy I've been.
I feel like there's something wrong with me - it's just like being at school again myself!!