Anyone who knows me even a little bit will probably know quite well that dh and i have had a rocky few years. We went to Relate, and things were really starting to look up - we've stabilised financially (sort of) and we're really pulling together wrt childcare and housework and all the niggly problems we had before.
This morning I picked up his phone by mistake (thinking it was my iPod) and saw he had a text from a woman. I know I shouldn't have looked, I know it, but I had that knot of dread in my stomach and I thought it would probably be something totally innocent. Anyway, there's lots of messages on there from the same woman (who I think is his ex) all alluding to MSN conversations they've had, all very flirtatious in nature - although mostly from her, he's being his usual stolid self - dating back several months.
He's in the bath at the moment, part of me wants to look on his laptop to see if the conversations are there, part of me thinks it's absolutely pointless as if there is anything going on he is certainly not stupid enough to leave them there for me to find, part of me wants to text this woman and tell her to fuck the fuck off and leave us alone - and the other, smaller, sane voice is saying, "FGS - some people just talk in a flirtatious manner, he's not done anything, she's just that type of person, y'know, the type of person you used to be!"
And I don't want to ruin the good stuff that we have right now by being suspicious and jealous and stupid. And I don't want to talk to him because it'll be obvious that I've been looking on his phone!