anyone interested... well I had endless texts asking how I was doing and that he still loved me and I was bring 'rushed' and not thinking properly etc etc...
Meantime I was asked out on a date and although I thought 'early days yet' I thought I would give it a go, even if it was just to get out a bit. It is a guy I have never met, but we exchanged msn a long time ago and he often 'pops' up and we chat. He has asked me out on dates before but I never opted as I was with former LDR man.
This time I said yes. We then exchanged phone numbers and we spoke a few times about this and that, small talk. He asked me to go out for a coffee and meal whatever this evening - he'd come pick me up and we'd go together to this local place.
So I turned my work schedule around to make sure I had evening free and went and bought a colour to put on my hair, rushed home, tidied up and did my hair... ironed my top, went back out to work, came back on break, cooked meal for DD, went back out to work again... then I get a text saying he can't make it tonight as he has to take his daughter out (who is 17) and could we make it Thursday. I said 'it's ok, No Thanks'... was I being too intolerant? Am I still smarting, is it early days yet? To be honest it put me right down in the doldrums especially when I was being so strong about previous and not buckling under the sadness of his pleas... Oh dear... I'm not very good at all of this and feel like backing out completely of the 'having a partner thing'... who cares if I am on my own, I like my own company! I love getting into bed at 9 and reading my book, I love my cats! I love my messy house I love having dark hair roots, I love not waxing my bits and waering tatty comfortable underwear...
I think the whole thing is highly overated... so why are the corners of my mouth pointing downwards...