My friend is leaving and going home to Liverpool. I feel bereft . I don't do friendship very well. I have lots of 'people I know' and they are fine but I find it hard to move on from that stage. I am great at meeting new people and can put on a party animal mask for a while but long term that isn't me. I am always convinced people find me dull. I am quite dull. And quite inward-looking. And earnest. But there are a few who see through that and think I am worth persevering with. This was one of them.
She was full of exitement and nervousness. She has aranged some job interviews and found a house just down the road from her parents. And I was telling her pleased I was for her and making encouraging noises, all the time silently yelling 'don't go!'
We will keep in touch - not that I am good at that - but tis not the same.
Second time in the last few years this has happened. Am beginning to think I smell! I think the problem is that I am attracted to slight oddballs - who don't immediately fit in, and of course after a while they move on.
Giving myself a good old shake right now and taking a deep breath. Onwards and upwards....