dont quite know where else to put this really. - but just feel so amazing.
Rocky relationship with now soon to be ex dh. We were together for almost 10 years. 1 dd.
Lots of cheating, rows, little by little i lost myself and i didnt even realise it. Totally lost my sex drive too ( thought it was my problem... i now realise it was my hed telling me i didnt want to have sex with him anymore)
I finally kicked him out and am making a new life for myself. SOme days its really difficult, but on the whole its a lot beter.
Well, - ive been having a look on the dating sites, more of a something to do in a evening for a bit of fun. Not met anyone on there,... until yesterday.
Had been speaking to him on and off for a few weeks. Fri we really got chatting...( i posted thread on fri asking if it was slutty to meet up for just sex!!!) sat am, bit the bullet and met him and fucked all day.
I feel amazing. Like ive not felt in years. I dont care if i dont hear from him again ( though i suspect i will...!) just wow.
Just feels like a major turning point and i feel like me again.
which is a really wonderful thing to happen.
Im not advocating everyone go out and do the same. I just want to say to those that are having a hard time, cant see when it will get better and just feel like they dont know themselves anymore. You are in there.. dont give up!