Why do I stop myself loving the people who love me?

[TearsInMyEars]

I feel like there is a wall between me and the people I should be loving. I know I love them but I can't feel it.

Have had a lot of problems with DP over the years and I have hardened my heart to some extent but why do I hold back a little from loving my DC too?

Sorry, am not very articulate.

Does anyone understand what I'm saying?

obviously not...

Sorry I can't help with understanding how you're feeling but don't want you to be ignored. You obviously need to talk to someone, sounds like the bad past experiences with your DP have had a major effect on you. Try approaching your GP possibly.

i understand. not much help. but not sure what you can do about it. maybe counselling?

How old are your DC?

Totally understand. Happening to me recently. I was worried but a friend said I have been just through so much trauma recently, I have shut down a bit overall. Could be that due to long term upset you are shutting down a bit too. Def think counselling, talking to someone might help. Trying to go that path myself