I was a single parent for 5 years so became used to having lots of time to myself, sometimes (often) too much and I used to dream of what it would be like to be part of a "real family" again.
I met my current partner last year and both of us hated being on our own so we decided to move in together.
It was great at first, my boys got on great with his daughter, me and DP loved being around each other all the time and there were no regrests.
Only now I'm starting to find it all very difficult. I get no time on my own at all. When my kids are in bed, his daughter is still up. When my kids go to their dads house, his DD is still here.
There is so much noise now, arguments between the kids constantly, arguments over the TV, arguments over the PC.It seems like I just blend into the background whilst the rest of them do their thing.
I sometimes think of my old house, how I could always be on my own if I wanted to be. Sometimes on a night when my kids are messing around in their bedroom (they share now, never had to before) and his DD is downstairs controlling the TV, the dogs are flying around.......I think back to how my night would have been in my old house. Kids in bed, silence, me laying on sofa watching whatever I wanted. I miss it.
Is this just a phase or have I made a big mistake?