Split with my boyfriend over a year ago his choice,as he said I was making him jealous as he didnt like other men looking at me,and various other things (I think now that this wasnt the true story)
We bumped into each other 3 years ago not long after him & his wife had split (him & I had been childhood sweethearts)so we spent 2 years together we where best friends aswell as lovers during this time.
So when we split up I was heartbroken then 3 months after we split he text me and he told me that he had got back with his wife, and then we started texting on a regular basis just everyday things & then we used to chat on the phone,(I knew this was wrong but I still in love with him)then we met up talked all night as usual & ended up sleeping together after that I decided that we should stop all contact all together as wasnt fair on his wife & family & also not fair on me ( I was heartbroken again).
Fast forward 5 months we bumped into each one evening at a opening just had a chat fine no problem there, then following week on a night out we bumped in to each other again & ended up chatting & he started to say that he missed me (must point out that he never talks about how he feels) & that he realises now that I did love him & that I am the most smilest person ever. And we ended up snogging.
Two weeks later in a different part of the country we ended up bumping into each other in this club and we got talking & he said that he has been wanting to ring me up & ask me to meet him somewhere not for sex but because he just wants to look at me as he thinks I am gorgeous & because I always look so happy & that he miss us talking, then we end up in a deep talk about how he felt about me that he still loves me ( this is a bloke that has only told me twice in 2 years that he loves me) & that he misses me very much & lots of other things but yes & I am not proud we ended up spending the whole weekend together with our various friends having a laugh, talking etc.
We left it with me saying that I would ring him. But most of the way home with my best friend I was crying as I love this man more than anything & I know its wrong but how do I get over him someone please help me as I am so sad my heart is breaking again.
I just dont know how to get over him & out my head. Somebody please help me
Sorry its so long
Please help me as at this mom