My DH and I have been married for about 11 years and have D nearly 5. Due to not being able to afford to go out and not having family backup, we have a couple of drinks at home. This is when DH starts having a go at me for being a not very socialable person.
I am not great with people, not antisocial but just find talking to stranger face to face bit difficult, also, I refuse to let F-I-Law have my D because last year, he decided to have another sulk about all sorts and didn't speak to DH or ask about his GD no birthday card for her either. Naturally I am angry and have refused to speak to inlaws since. DH has accused me of being unforgiving and hard hearted.
All these things have started to get to me and dh and i are not really frinds anymore, sex life has suffered. Monday night he said to me lets go for a shower then early night, I went for a bath (needed shave and stuff) then headed up to bed while he was doing teeth, I got into bed and he said "what are you doing? I am going down in a minute", I said "oh right" got out of bed and went downstairs. He calls down and said I was joking come on up. Up I go, it starts with me doing something and gets to the point of no return for him so I stop and he then complains at the fact I stopped. So it seems that he got me into bed just so he could have his end away. What about my needs, at this point I got stroppy and said I was tired and to forget it. He texts me the following morning at work and said sorry for the misunderstanding and that he only whinged that I had stopped because he was joking. I am sick of his just joking attitude, why cant he be serious when it comes to our relationship. Last night I thought he might have made an effort for us. Yeah right, he sat infront of the telly watching something so I got a bath and went upstairs to bed with my book, knowing the programme was going to finish at 9. 9.05pm no sign of him, I go down and he is sitting on the sofa with the telly off just staring into space. At which point I blow up and looose it. He says that I read too many mills and boon books WTF!! We have no sex life he is not interested in me, I am sick of starving myself thin to please him when he does not bother with me anyway. All this came out last night. I feel completely rejected and unwanted. He makes no effort at all. I can't trust him anymore in the fact that he really love me for me as he is always making me out to be a monster.
What the F do I do?